Stay Curious

Do you ever stop to think what makes you feel and react the way you do? It can be strange to just think that most of my thoughts and reactions were all learned from my home life. Growing up I remember putting myself in any academic, sport, and music program just so I wouldn't have to be home. Becoming an overachiever essentially saved me from the disappointment I gained from home. It is strange to think how much of that has changed as I have gotten older. I guess sometimes even your family as much as they "should be" pure and loving in fact created so much of your first heartache. Not to go into too much detail, but thinking back to growing up I always tried to save people in my family... "save" I'll use the term loosely but I always wanted to see the devil in the brightest of lights. I always forgave even when I knew I would never forget, because its what family does. Isn't that beyond dysfunctional? How has it taken me this long to realize most of ever...

So now your gone and I'm haunted And I bet your just fine Did I make it that easy To walk right in and out of my life

Because when you feel something you know. Against all odds we still hope that what we thought we knew was true and still is.

once my beacon that made me believe that I was no longer lost but found.

When you finally come to the realization it may be too late, when you finally understand what your barriers were built from you quickly see your foundation changing. Your ability to adapt is quickly put to the test, in order to move forward and progress one must break away from that anchor, sometimes this is all we know. However we can create a new anchor not one created from your past, but one for your future. Nonetheless there is beauty in your transition, you're only human and collateral damage is inevitable, and sometimes you damage those dearest to your heart. -t

funny little share I guess making some minor upgrades to the PC soon. its just not fair how clean pubg looks on PC such a difference kinda hard not to migrate from console to comp. oh... excuse my mess. ps. my keyboards sexy.